Honesty of Emotion
"Something about the way you said it reminded me
that I'm not the same person I was.
And I'm not saying that in a bad way.
It's just that I keep adjusting to myself and my world to find it shifting again.
So I learn to love new faces.
Learn to live in other spaces.
And I keep trying to measure my life in intangibles.
A night not in sleep, but in conversations and connections.
A day not in hours, but in the walks I took
and the music I listened to.
Because that kind of stuff is infinitely more important than anything you can take from a classroom and anything you feel in the middle of a well-rested stretch.
It's about the honesty of emotion
and why that weighs so much to me.
So I keep lifting my head, finding a smile
and I keep on going even though I have circles under my eyes.
I keep trading words for sleep.
I keep breathing and loving and laughing and reading
and I guess maybe all of that makes up for what I lose in the sleep I don't get.
But mostly,
the more I try to make this life a balanceable equation,
the more I am reminded of its flux.
The more I try to quantify these experiences,
the more I am reminded of the limits of measurement.
And so it's constantly changing, and I am too.
Growing and giving pieces of my heart to everyone
and every place I meet.
Because everything else is just pretense."
Posted by Bianca at 4:01 AM
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