Tuesday, 13 May 2008

On the Way to Bianca's (15) Blog

Honesty of Emotion

"Something about the way you said it reminded me
that I'm not the same person I was.
And I'm not saying that in a bad way.
It's just that I keep adjusting to myself and my world to find it shifting again.
So I learn to love new faces.
Learn to live in other spaces.

And I keep trying to measure my life in intangibles.
A night not in sleep, but in conversations and connections.
A day not in hours, but in the walks I took
and the music I listened to.
Because that kind of stuff is infinitely more important than anything you can take from a classroom and anything you feel in the middle of a well-rested stretch.

It's about the honesty of emotion
and why that weighs so much to me.
So I keep lifting my head, finding a smile
and I keep on going even though I have circles under my eyes.
I keep trading words for sleep.
I keep breathing and loving and laughing and reading
and I guess maybe all of that makes up for what I lose in the sleep I don't get.

But mostly,
the more I try to make this life a balanceable equation,
the more I am reminded of its flux.
The more I try to quantify these experiences,
the more I am reminded of the limits of measurement.
And so it's constantly changing, and I am too.
Growing and giving pieces of my heart to everyone
and every place I meet.
Because everything else is just pretense."

Posted by Bianca at 4:01 AM


Bianca said...

Thanks for taking interest in my blog.

Do I know you?

JayAshKal said...

No, I don't know you personally. But at 15 you are a good writer. Keep following your dream, don't worry about the maths if you don't excel in it. Maybe you are a wordsmith not a mathemathecian.

May 13, 2008 12:36 AM

Bianca said...

So where are you from?
How old are you?
What's your name?

FilMasons NSW said...

Unfortunately this link has been deleted by Bianca... all her previous writings gone.

Good news is she is back writing and blogging again.